Settled on my dining chair, with laptop perched on the table, i look out of the balcony door. There are many things i can see right now but sometimes what meets to eye does not matter. Sometimes you manage to look beyond those thick luscious leaves, random flowers, buildings, solar systems sun bathing on many terraces, airplanes flying overhead occasionally, the far away mirage called the horizon, the blob of clouds, the patches of clear blue sky...these things just come forward and get lost in the vision of naught that has suddenly become so existent, so clear, so much intense. You not only look but you manage to look beyond everything magically. The beauty of the mortal things lose their charm when you are indulged so lavishly into the depth of eternal silence, in the tranquility that the house is providing so generously. You almost feel thankful. Good that my kid is gone to school or else I'd not be able to do some philosophy right now. :)
Life is very dramatic. The coin flips so quickly and so silently that when it happens, it gets almost impossible to recognize the subtle transformation. but that's life at the end and its drama unfolding every day. Today is Thursday and the first date of this month. That reminds me it's my book club day. Yay! Something to look forward to. The theme of the month is - School is Cool. School is cool only if there is everything positive but it can get uncool because of some issues such as bullying, shyness, finding difficulty in making friends, tough subjects, challenging teacher and what not. The latter can bring not-so-positive impact on the child's mind. Hence, the theme, to give a good head start to the new academic year. Cool, right? Parents have shown their approval already.
A slow but steady longing for a cup of hot coffee has started to stir me within. i will get up when i am done here. And will drink it when i start working on my story. Something nice is going to happen in the next couple of months but i'll share when it's time to share. i can only hope it works.
The tick tock of the wall clock behind me is filling the moment so diligently that it almost makes me smile. Have you ever been this silent? in such silent surroundings? It's beautiful, i can tell you...to be able to feel things falling for natural course occurring at natural pace. Chaos is good but most of the time, it's the silence that can bring you closer to yourself. It may not be very heart-warming though. Because it takes you far away from yourself too. So it can be understandably heart-breaking just as well. No. Heart-wrenching is more suitable word here. But embracing both the sides of coin is what should be the natural course of being human, being sensible, being wise or mature or whatever. Just accept and embrace. That can do a little less damage, i guess. After all, if it's the soul that's affected, no one has done the damage but yourself.
Now before you turn in Robert Langdon and start behaving like him in a typical manner, let me go grab my coffee. i wish i could have filter one though.